My 2018 - Looking Back in Retrospect
The purpose of a retrospective is to look back at what you have achieved and learn from your past experiences. It’s not about finding a scapegoat, but rather about the question why something happened in a certain way and how you can improve that in the future. Ideally, you should work on solutions right away. But you shouldn’t only concentrate on the negative things, but also highlight successes: what worked great and what should you keep doing?
Looking back at 2018, it's been a good year filled with love, happiness and friendship. I feel grateful for my work and colleagues as well as my loved ones. I guess I've always been afraid of change as I felt scared of something new, however, with letting go of certain things I was able to try new things meet new people, go to new places and start a new chapter of my life. Growing up, I have always felt I have played the safe card, always doing things by the book (which is good and has worked for me) but now I feel more confident within myself to go out and have new experiences; whether it be small things like taking up cooking classes or going to more concerts or going to a country you have never visited before. On the other hand, this year has had its challenges which I have learnt to tackle hard problems, people whilst trying to be the best possible version of myself. I am still a work in progress as no-one is perfect however never in my wildest dreams I thought this year would have been this good... 2018 has been pure magic
Here is one of my favorite poems that sums up this year perfectly for me - it's time to let go and move on....
"If you're anything like me,
You bite your nails,
And laugh when you're nervous.
You promise people the world,
because that's what they want from you.
You like giving them what they want...
But darling, you need to stop,
If you're anything like me,
You knock on wood every time you make plans.
You cross your fingers, hold your breath,
Wish on lucky numbers and eyelashes
Your superstitions were the lone survivors of the shipwreck.
Rest In Peace, to your naive bravado...
If life gets too good now,
Darling, it scares you.
If you're anything like me,
You never wanted to lock your door,
Your secret garden gate or your diary drawer
Didn't want to face the you you don't know anymore
For fear she was much better before...
But Darling, now you have to.
If you're anything like me,
There's a justice system in your head
For names you'll never speak again,
And you make your ruthless rulings.
Each new enemy turns to steel
They become the bars that confine you,
In your own little golden prison cell...
But Darling, there is where you meet yourself.
If you're anything like me
You've grown to hate your pride
To love your thighs
And no amount of friends at 25
Will fill the empty seats
At the lunch tables of your past
The teams that picked you last...
But Darling, you keep trying.
If you're anything like me,
You couldn't recognize the face of your love
Until they stripped you of your shiny paint
Threw your victory flag away
And you saw the ones who wanted you anyway...
Darling, later on you will thank your stars
for that frightful day.
If you're anything like me,
I'm sorry.
But Darling, it's going to be okay."
Looking back at 2018, it's been a good year filled with love, happiness and friendship. I feel grateful for my work and colleagues as well as my loved ones. I guess I've always been afraid of change as I felt scared of something new, however, with letting go of certain things I was able to try new things meet new people, go to new places and start a new chapter of my life. Growing up, I have always felt I have played the safe card, always doing things by the book (which is good and has worked for me) but now I feel more confident within myself to go out and have new experiences; whether it be small things like taking up cooking classes or going to more concerts or going to a country you have never visited before. On the other hand, this year has had its challenges which I have learnt to tackle hard problems, people whilst trying to be the best possible version of myself. I am still a work in progress as no-one is perfect however never in my wildest dreams I thought this year would have been this good... 2018 has been pure magic
Here is one of my favorite poems that sums up this year perfectly for me - it's time to let go and move on....
"If you're anything like me,
You bite your nails,
And laugh when you're nervous.
You promise people the world,
because that's what they want from you.
You like giving them what they want...
But darling, you need to stop,
If you're anything like me,
You knock on wood every time you make plans.
You cross your fingers, hold your breath,
Wish on lucky numbers and eyelashes
Your superstitions were the lone survivors of the shipwreck.
Rest In Peace, to your naive bravado...
If life gets too good now,
Darling, it scares you.
If you're anything like me,
You never wanted to lock your door,
Your secret garden gate or your diary drawer
Didn't want to face the you you don't know anymore
For fear she was much better before...
But Darling, now you have to.
If you're anything like me,
There's a justice system in your head
For names you'll never speak again,
And you make your ruthless rulings.
Each new enemy turns to steel
They become the bars that confine you,
In your own little golden prison cell...
But Darling, there is where you meet yourself.
If you're anything like me
You've grown to hate your pride
To love your thighs
And no amount of friends at 25
Will fill the empty seats
At the lunch tables of your past
The teams that picked you last...
But Darling, you keep trying.
If you're anything like me,
You couldn't recognize the face of your love
Until they stripped you of your shiny paint
Threw your victory flag away
And you saw the ones who wanted you anyway...
Darling, later on you will thank your stars
for that frightful day.
If you're anything like me,
I'm sorry.
But Darling, it's going to be okay."
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